Recently I was feeling so desperate after being denied and I wanted to cum so badly. So, I begged and begged sir to let me. He made a proposition: I had an hour to have an orgasm, but if I didn’t cum during that time frame, I had to write “I’m sorry, sir, for not listening to you. I’m an edging doll and orgasms aren’t for me” 100 times. I accepted because I thought an hour was more than enough time to cum, right??? And I was incredibly needy. So I got undressed and played with my clit for a bit, rubbing it in circles before getting my vibrator. I held it on my clit as it buzzed away, making my pussy clench and drip. But here’s the thing – the moment that I touched that vibe to my clit, I knew it was over.First of all, having a limited time frame to have an orgasm always makes it so much harder for me to get to the edge. I get too worried about how much time I have left to relax. Second, and more importantly- knowing that I have permission to cum before I’m riding an edge is a turn off. It’s hard to describe. The whole thrill of edging is that I’m not allowed to cum without permission. The very idea that brings me to the edge is the thought that I’m getting so close, but I’m not allowed to go over… ugh. So needless to say, I didn’t cum during that hour. Once given the opportunity, I didn’t even want it. Which is frustrating to think back on because I really want an orgasm as I’m typing this. Actually, do I want an orgasm or just the idea of one? Or, deep down, is it denial that I’m craving the most?So here is a picture of the lines that I wrote, since sir said I have to share: https://ift.tt/3i6XXHV anyone else have this mind fuck where they have trouble cumming with permission? I’d love to know. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n