Day 3 My First Attempt at Denial

Last week I reached out for direction to get started with orgasm denial and agreed to relinquish control of my orgasm for three days. I wasn’t sure if I would make it this far, in my personal life I cum almost every day and I tend to be selfish about my autonomy. I’m a slave to my pussy and sometimes I feel like it controls my life, it wasnt until the recent past that I realized the reason I love cuckquean and rough sex has a lot to do with women being used for a mans pleasure rather than her own.The first day I started gently with two ruined orgasms, I knew I wasn’t going to cum but I fell asleep craving a choke fuck and some sperm. The second day I was told to watch 15 mins of porn before I was allowed to edge. I was allowed to have 5 edges but I had to spank my clit with the back of a wooden spoon between edges. I did the first three edges pretty early in the evening and the last two much later. By the 5th one my pussy was so wet that I deeply considered giving in or allowing myself an extra edge. This caused me to resort to extra measures…. I humped a rough bristle scrub brush to relieve the throbbing sensation. The brush was clean but it was a perfect blend of pain and pressure. The pain of the bristles was enough to cancel out the intense pleasure of pressing my clit down. Without the pain it would have been easy to have a ruined orgasm or more by pressing that hard.Today I was instructed to put on a fresh pair of panties after work and watch porn until my pussy soaks through them. I’m not allowed to edge until I soak my panties and I’m limited to 7 edges, if everything goes well I’ll be allowed to cum after sunrise tomorrow. I have barely watched any porn but I can feel the cotton of my panties sticking to my labia and even thinking about being allowed to touch myself is making my pussy weep.I can see why women are so desperate and easy to control in this state. I feel like I’d do anything to get my holes used, even if it may not result in orgasm. This is fun to do to myself but I would be even better to really act it out and the need for release is motivating me to do things I’d usually never do like make this post. I can still be useful even if a man doesn’t want my pussy or if he wants to deny me. I’m still not used to very much anal but why should a man use his hand to masturbate when i have a throat that needs to be fucked? What about inserting a fleshlight in my cunt and fucking that, its tighter for you and I’ll be full but I wont be able to orgasm. Are there any suction caps that I can use to cover my clit? I feel like this should exist to prevent any direct stimulation but I have no idea where to buy one.I know that I will want to wait before I try to deny myself again, this is intense, consuming and exhausting but I want you all to know that I think I might be a denial whore. Its not just a kink, its the only practical way I can think of that I’m ever going to be able to keep my cunt from controlling my life. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n