April 2021 – Page 82 – Orgasm Control – Edging, Tease and Denial, ruined orgasms, chastity

welcome back to my weekly report ☺️ I had a lot of fun this week and I’m happy to be back to share it with you all. I hope you enjoy ☺️here are all my previous reports . (feel free to comment but if you wanna message me personally please ask my master u/Separate-Amoeba first)a loooooot happened this week, so my apologies in advance if this is long. I did a lot of new things this week and I’d like to remember them, and this serves as documentation of that. I exposed myself quite a bit, both in public and to my owner with videos. I was also punished a lot. it was just a busy week, and I like to be detailed.let’s start at the top of the week with….. uhmmm I don’t really know what to call it. it was kind of aftercare but it was a task as well. I was feeling…. inadequate, to say the least. like I wasn’t doing enough for my owner. I called myself useless (not in the fun degrading way) and he said I’m not allowed to insult his slut like that. he made me get into the face down, ass up position for 10 minutes. I had to rub my clit, without edging, while repeating stuff like “I am a good slut.” “I am proud to be a good slut.” and “I am worthy of my master’s training.” this was weirdly difficult to do. I think I definitely needed it though and I appreciate my master pushing me to do it.quick mention of a deal I made with my owner. I’m currently limited to only 3 edges a day. it’s fucking killing me, I need more. at the beginning of the week we made a deal that if I could hold the edge for 100 seconds by friday then he’ll give me one more edge 🥴 I’m currently able to hold it for 70 seconds. I know, it’s not fair at all but I still tried, and failed. it was an impossible task to complete so I guess i’m stuck being frustrated with my 3 edges a day, (which I am very grateful for, by the way. please don’t make it any less)I feel bad for this, I’m not too excited to write about it. I got mad at him and I got really disrespectful. I kinda told him he doesn’t have any power or control, among other things. I clearly wasn’t thinking straight, I stepped way out of line and I do feel bad about it.he gave me 2 punishments for that. the first one is that i’ll be doing sensory deprivation whenever I’m touching myself for 6 days. so a blindfold on, headphones in playing white noise, staying away from any scents, and I can’t taste myself until I cool down. this punishment is annoying as fuck, maybe i’ll get more into it later.the second punishment was that he took away my collar for an hour so I can remember my place. that one hurt, and it really made me see how badly I fucked up. I would’ve thought that I’d feel less submissive without it but it had the opposite effect, I immediately felt more obedient and submissive. not because I took it off but because I really wanted it back.April fool’s day was this week and it would’ve been impossible for me not to try to do something for it. my first attempt failed. I tried to give master a link disguised as another link that led to a picture that just said that he sucked. he didn’t automatically click on the fake link like I hoped and he foiled that plan after my many attempts to get him to click on the link 🙄.I had something else planned and this actually worked 😁 I sent him a voice recording where I acted like I was teasing myself and then I very suddenly played the infamous “never gonna give you up” song. yes, I rick rolled him and yeah I guess it was a cheap shot but it did work so the lesson here is to stick with the classics. uhmmm as he was reading the report he realized he never punished me for this and well, now I have to listen to the song for a 65 minutes on repeat. I think this counts as cruel and unusual punishment. I’m gonna cry 🙃I didn’t stop at that for april fools. I went on r/bratlife to make a post to encourage fellow brats to use the same idea. uhmmm he didn’t like that, but he only found the post the next day so that’s when I got punished for it. he made me edit it to say that brats should be good and obedient for their Doms all year round 🙄 ( here’s the post of you wanna see the edited version ) I refused to do that the first time he asked so he had me attach one end on my clamps to my clit and the other to my desk so i was like “leashed” to it and i had to switch it from my clit to my tits every 15 minutes. I did that for a couple hours and every time I got up I couldn’t just remove the clamps, I had to walk away and “rip” them off.I got a new punishment this week. I don’t know how he keeps coming up with new ones. it’s both annoying yet really impressive and fun. I was complaining about college to him and then he was telling me my classes are easy and that he knows everything. sooo I called him a nerd. really, it could’ve been taken as a compliment, but I still got punished for it 🙄I had to wear my pants and panties around my ankles for the rest of the night. I felt stupid as hell. I mean, try walking around with your pants around your ankles and tell me how much dignity you have left. now, that’s not to say I didn’t enjoy it. it turned me on, but what’s new, everything turns me on. it was hard not to just keep touching my cunt with it being exposed the whole night, but I managed to minimize the teasing because I only had one edge left that night and I couldn’t use it until 10:23.now let me talk about all the “exposing” I did of myself this week. it was nothing extreme but it was still the most i’ve done. I like how it makes me feel vulnerable. it’s just scary but it also turns me on.I tied some bondage underneath my clothes and went on a walk. I liked feeling the pressure of the rope on my body but I kind of forgot about it and then I would randomly remember it and would get embarrassed. on the walk home the wind blew up my shirt a little and that slight feeling of being exposed got me horny and turned off my rational thinking and inspired me to lift up my shirt and expose my tits completely in public and play with my tits while walking home. I was completely soaked by the time I got backthat same day I continued chasing that slightly addicting combination of feeling scared yet turned on feeling of being exposed. I tried clamping my nipples with chopsticks for the first time and figured why not record a video of me twisting and playing with them and sending them to my owner. this was kinda funny to watch back, I saw myself kinda slip into a more submissive headspace once I twisted them because of the pain.later on in the week I went out and while I have edged in bathrooms and dressing rooms before I wanted something a little more public but not completely out in the open. edging in the car was the solution to that. I still had to do my sensory deprivation punishment for this so I couldn’t hear or see anything or anyone around me. so I had to edge myself without knowing if I should stop because someone was around. that was terrifying, but it also got me instantly wet and ready to do my edge. I put my coat on my lap to try to hide a little and at first I was trying to control my face so it wasn’t obvious but as i got closer to the edge the less I cared about how obvious I was being. I got to the edge and immediately checked to see if anyone was around. there wasn’t, but i’ll never know if I was seen by someone walking by earlier and that thought gets me fucking horny.last story of exposing myself. this was right after edging in the car. I wanted to edge more but I’m still limited to 3 a day so I couldn’t. I did the next best thing and got my tits out and teased my clit. I recorded a video of that and sent it to my owner. there were quite a lot of people and cars passing by, which only further makes me believe that someone must have seen me edging earlier. I was really worried about being caught cuz with my tits out, if anyone were to walk by and simply turn their head they’d see me. I tried to be careful but there were some close calls. my horny brain can’t think clearly enough to pay too much attention to my surroundings.ok so I sent him that video buuut I got scared and unsent the video. he saw that I sent it but didn’t get to watch it and we have a rule that I’m not allowed to delete anything that I send him so I was kinda punished for that. obviously part of that was me sending the video again so he can watch it. then he asked me to tell him about some other fantasies that scare me but also get me wet and I had to do snap a rubber band against my clit 10 times when I got home.ok and finally, I completed a major goal this week. I got to the edge by just sucking on a dildo!!! I wrote a more detailed report here so I won’t write as much here. it’s the result of 5 months of training under my master and I’m happy I finally accomplished it because it was really starting to feel impossible. the actual edge was amazing and different in a completely unexpected way. I earned my other dildo back as a reward for doing this. (I lost all my toys a while ago and I’ve been slowly earning them back) I definitely wanna try to do it again but it’ll definitely take a good amount of effort, it really was a miracle I actually did it that day.and that brings me to the end of my report where I get to thank my master. we did a lot this week and I’m happy I could trust him to train me as well as he does. with his help I’ve accomplished things I never even imagined were possible. I’m also very happy that I get to serve my master. I know I come off too strong sometimes, but it’s only because I have the pleasure of serving such an amazing Dom. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n