I don’t know what made me try denial again. Maybe it’s complete boredom with my sex life with men (or complete lack thereof). At some point I started looking for stronger bottles of lidocaine. At some point I started numbing every night after an edge. Then I reduced it to one edge a week. My accidents became less frequent. Now I’m working on tantric/Taoist sex practices, complete relaxation, and no orgasms forever. We’ll see. I’m sure I’ll have another accident at some point, but once I started relaxing, it started getting much harder to get anywhere near an orgasm at all. Yesterday I tried to edge for the first time in a week, and I worked at it for 40 minutes unsuccessfully.Maybe I’m just one of those women that really isn’t ever supposed to cum? By 3 weeks in I was horribly needy and very uncomfortable. Around days 23-25 i started to feel a little more control over resisting touching myself. By two days ago I started toI feel a lot better. I was clear headed, and I started to be able to do my work again.Instead of focusing on cumming, these days I focus on sensuality. I make sure that my whole body contacts a variety of textures and fabrics every day. I touch myself softly and tenderly until my whole body tingles and feels alive. My arousal is much more a reaction to someone else’s expressed attraction now, so I’m much more receptive when men hit on me now. I always did get attention, but there’s never a shortage of it now.I don’t know if I could ever go back to having orgasms. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n