Today was only day 4 and I am constantly aware of my needy pussy. It’s hard to concentrate on anything else. I am horny all the time and all I want to do is to play.This morning I used my bullet vibrator for 15 minutes. Every time I had to remove it from my clit for fear of building to an edge, I pressed an ice pack against it and slowly counted to 15 before continuing. I kept telling myself that teasing my pussy without edging is not supposed to be easy. It’s supposed to be difficult to remind myself that I am not in charge. Someone else owns and controls my pussy.Throughout the day I used a few different toys to tease myself. My play time with the Lush was probably the most exciting. I selected long distance mode on the Lovense app hoping on of the users I am connected with would tease me. Not knowing if anyone would take control was both terrifying and exciting. I found it very difficult to concentrate on the book I was reading. I wanted to be played with so badly. Luckily after about 20 minutes, one user noticed I was online and took control of my Lush. I forced myself to keep reading while getting more and more worked up. Not speaking to the other person nor knowing them made it especially thrilling. I will for sure do this again.I currently don’t have a strict list of tasks to do every day. I just play whenever I fancy it. The only rules I have are: no orgasms, no edges, not touching myself other than with toys, legs spread wide while masturbating and repeating my mantras throughout the day. I might change this in a few days so I feel less in control but for now I just want to get more and more desperate to cum! female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n