Month: March 2021

After I cum, I usually get really bad cramps that painkillers can’t even help. I think denial might be the way to fix this, but I’m really new to it and don’t know where to even start.I really like to cum, so finding the motivation to stop is really hard female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

hey, hey ☺️ you know the drill, I happily write and share my report and hope you all enjoy it ☺️here are all my previous reports . (feel free to comment but if you wanna message me personally please ask my master u/Separate-Amoeba first)the beginning of these are always hard to write. it’s difficult to introduce all the fun things my owner has me do. it all just feels right, i’m extremely happy that I get to serve him. with every edge I do I get more desperate and there was lots of fun edges this week even though I’m still limited to 3 a day 🙄this week master had me and his other sub ( u/avocadosdimension ) play poker with him. we both had no idea how to play and he started with a million while we had a fraction of that. I think that’s cheating 🙄 (but it was also a subtle way of showing his power over us and that turned me on).anyways, we both had a couple punishments but the winner would only get 1 and he told me if I beat him I’d be allowed to use my buttplug again. I really thought I was gonna win, I had more money than him at one point then I lost it all 😔 but I did beat his other sub so I got away with just an extra day of no pussy. it was still fun, I enjoy playing games like this, where I have something to gain and something to loseit’s kind of scary how much patience master has. he put up with a lot of shit from me this last week. specifically on one day where I was being set off by every little thing. I disrespected him and insulted him a loooot.like, I was supposed to fuck my ass again after losing the privilege for 10 days but I got mad at him and refused and cursed at him so he took it away for 4 more days 😔I should’ve learned my lesson after that but later at night I got annoyed again and started disrespecting him again. he told me to do 10 smacks on my clit every ten minutes for the rest of the night. I had to cut it down to 5 and then stop completely. I did almost 100 clit snaps and it was way too much.I was punished for all that and for missing my edge twice. I had to put my dildo in my mouth and I wasn’t allowed to take it out again for the rest of the night with a few obvious exceptions. he gave that to me with like 6 hours left in the day. I was excited, I really like sucking my dildo. the first hour and half or so were great. I was turned on and wet and drooling all over myself buuut then things started going downhill. my jaw was stiff and my throat was sore (they still hurt today 🥴) so after 3 hours, with an allowed break in between, I had to stop.my owner took away the privilege of using my fingers for 4 days because I told him he couldn’t keep things interesting all on his own and that he would miss my bratting if I stopped completely (I still think it’s true, but I should cool it on the bratting). taking away my fingers might be worse than taking away my toys. it was hard not to touch myself, I do it so casually now just because I’m so desperate all the time. buuuut it did allow me to find new things to grind on since that’s the only way I could edgeI’m kinda impressed with myself for thinking of this one. when I hump my pillow I fold it in half so I thought I’d put my vibrator in between it and then i’ll have a vibrating pillow to grind against. I’m not the biggest fan of vibrators because they’re too strong but this dulled it down a lot so I was able to enjoy it more. I could just sit and have it keep me turned on and then I could grind against the pillow to build the edge. I liked it, I definitely recommend trying it.there was one day where I was allowed to use my dildo but I couldn’t fuck my cunt or ass but master allowed me to grind my clit against it. this was fucking good. I usually rub my dildo against my cunt before I fuck myself anyways but doing my whole edge with it was amazing. I wanted to fuck my cunt with it so badly, it was so close yet I wasn’t allowed to. the closer I got to the edge the more my cunt would clench around nothing. I really love it when those feelings of denial get really intense in one part of me.another thing I did was grind against the edge of my desk. i’ve done it on the corner before so this was just a slight change. I thought it would be easy but holy shit, it took forever. I had to keep repositioning myself and it hurt my clit and it was getting me so horny and wet but it took forever to actually get to the edge but it was kind of satisfying when I got there. I felt spent and used and tired, all in a good way. but yeah it took to long soooo don’t use an edge to edge.I’m kind of on a mission to get off on anything and everything in my room so for one edge I humped my water bottle. I just filled it up with water and I liked how cool it felt against my pussy and how after a while it started to hurt. it was kind of awkward at first but then I was too horny to care. I will continue with this mission because the weirder the thing I grind against the more dumb and pathetic I feel and that’s all I want.I wasn’t gonna mention this but there’s one last new-ish way I edged this week. my owner joked around one day and said he wants to see the day where my clit throbs would get me to the edge and there was one day where it was throbbing like crazy. I had this “rope dress” tied and it was putting pressure on my clit but I wasn’t grinding against it or moving at all really (I could edge by grinding on the rope 😅) I was looking at some porn and sucking the dildo and slightly playing with my tits and my whole cunt started like buzzing because of how turned on I was and then there was a slight build up and I got to the edge. it felt different than other edges, and it left me so much more needy and desperate. it was fucking fun, i’ll try to do it again.we’re working on getting me to the edge by just sucking on my dildos. I tried a different approach and it got me the closest i’ve been but not to the edge just yet. Instead of just sucking on the dildo, I face fucked myself. I haven’t done that before, I really like it. it makes me feel all kinds of worthless, like I have to be used like a fucktoy because i’m not good enough to have even the slightest control. a long time ago master gave me an offer, I could cum if I could do it from just giving oral. yesterday he rescinded that offer and I’m completely fine with that. I’m happy he took away my only opportunity to cum. I don’t want to cum, I’d be happy to just edge from giving oral ☺️quick mention of an audio I recorded. I already shared it here but here it is again in case you missed it. it’s kind of funny to think I was scared of recording seconds long audios for my owner just a couple months ago but now I’m happily sharing them here for everyone to hear.another little thing that I’m including that’s more for me to remember is that master is trying to get me to be more proud of everything I do for him. I’m constantly walking a fine between always thinking I’m doing a shitty job for him or getting overly cocky and getting in trouble for it. I just wanted to say I appreciate him helping me with that and i’ll really work on finding that balance.now one of my favorite parts of writing the reports, thanking my owner ☺️. he gets these randomly from me anyways, when i’m feeling extra grateful. a thank you for being patient and understanding with me. thank you for showing me what’s good dom is (he really is the greatest ☺️) and of course, thank you for training me and making me better. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n