Month: January 2021

So, hello. I am really new at this stuff but even thinking about edging or being denied for a long time gives me butterflies haha. The longest ive gone in denial was only about 3 days because it just felt too good to go over the edge and orgasm. So, starting off easy, how long should i edge for tonight? And after that time should i get to have an orgasm? Its up to you female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

It is with a heavy heart that I have to tell you that my relationship with my Sir ends. It’s in a good note, I swear, it’s something that we both had agreed on when we first got into this. It was supposed to be until my birthday, but hey, 9 days earlier won’t change a thing now, would it?I hope he doesn’t read this, because it’ll be me telling him I’m fine when I actually am not. It was me telling myself that I won’t cry writing this post, but I am already teary-eyed upon telling him that he should go after my last orgasm, so who’s to say I won’t be crying my heart out after I finish writing this post? 😣I’m thankful to those who have read my every post and been here with me since Day 1. It’s been a wonderful journey on loving myself and accepting who I am. I came here being clueless about myself, and within a month, I’ve discovered a lot about myself.It’s never easy, being in denial and trying to accept my dark side. People often think that I had never watched porn or masturbate because of how innocent I look, but the dark desires inside me, the ones that need someone to control my orgasms, the needs to have someone to obey to and submit… I used to think it was pretty fucked up.Sir truly did guide me well. The journey to be his denial slut was truly fun and enjoyable. He truly did break me, and ruin me, and almost manage to corrupt me (I swear this is all consensual). He didn’t manage to make me a bisexual though – that was my challenge to him 😝 but damn, this is still painful than I thought it’d be.There would be no more, “Good morning, my little slut.” from him anymore. It’s something I’m used to see everyday and that nickname is growing on me because he added “my” in front of the little slut – it indicates that I’m not just anybody’s slut. I was his. Ahh… no more of me asking him to cuddle me before I sleep too.Okay, I do get needy and clingy, so shshh :pTo my lovely Sir,Thank you for a very wonderful month with you. Thank you for reaching out to me, and letting me be comfortable with you (I was the one who PM’ed you first didn’t I? Where did I even get that courage from, I wonder). Thank you for keeping me safe and letting me be myself around you. Thank you for training me, letting me know all there is to know about being a mindless edging denial slut. I’m sure there are still other things to learn, but for now, this is enough.You taught me the beauty of edging. You taught me that it’s okay to explore myself and enjoy who I’m becoming. You taught me to love my own body and that I’m adorable just the way I am. You taught me that a dominant has to earn his fair share of trust and respect, and not just randomly commanding me to obey him blindly.It’s safe to say you’ve seen a lot of myself….a lot of my firsts too. You saw who I was from the start – a part of myself that I was scared to embrace. You made me proud of who I am today. I showed you how I ruined on command. I humped my pillows for you before I showed it here. You saw the best and the worst of me, and still stayed through it all.Thank you for not giving up on me, and for being so endlessly patient when dealing with me. Thank you for everything.Thank you… for being proud of me 🥺🥺🥺I’m glad I met you, Sir.And I hope, life would treat you well (I’m not crying, I swear ha ha ha).This was supposed to be a post about my well deserved orgasms but yo, why is it turning so bittersweet? 😶Well…I gave him my last orgasm as a parting gift, but I am still going to deny myself of orgasms for 365 days… starting now. I came twice for my Sir, and sneaked a third one after ruining it twice. I was a wet, needy mess this morning.I was feeling sad, yet I wanted to be a good girl. Not anyone’s good girl now, but just a promise I made to Sir and I’d withold that promise even though he’s not my Sir anymore. So here’s to a new chapter in my life, trying to be orgasms free for one whole year.With that being said….anyone wants to own me next? My DM is always open….is what I’d love to say…..but…..I do have The Witcher to watch, and lots of anime to catch up hehehe 🤭😉Till next time! 😌With love, Maru. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

I last posted a few months ago. My Dom had recently split up with me and I was feeling broken in so many ways.I wanted to say thank you to everyone who reached out to check in with me. Your kinds words helped so much.In the last couple of days, I suddenly realised that I felt good about life again! Such awesomeness… Such delight. Wait.. suddenly my body is craving orgasms?​Hmmm…It’s been a couple of weeks since I last had one. I’m tempted to see if I can go a little longer without that physical release. None of the ones I’ve had in the last few months have been what I’d call good. They’ve been simple releases of tension.I think I’d like to earn my next one. Now, how to go about this… female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Send me how you would edge and inevitably deny me. Could be as ruthless or as mean as you want, I’m sure it still wouldn’t be worse than my fantasy 🙂 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n