“You deserve to be treated like a queen in the streets, and fucked like a whore in the bed.” – Sir.Someone once told me that being in a dom/sub relationship requires a certain amount of intimacy between the two parties involved.I didn’t quite understand that before. I’ve been in several casual relationships where it was purely sexting and when satisfied, I’d be someone disposable to them. I didn’t think it was a big deal before – after all, it WAS a casual ones.But then I realized…this time, it’s different. It’s casual, I think, but it’s where Sir isn’t using me like the others. He’s patiently guiding me, explaining stuffs to me, extremely patient during my moodswings, still here even when I’m on my period, and this worth mentioning twice: my Sir is hella tolerant towards an emotional Maru.It’s something I cherish, his patience I mean, because I can be difficult at times. Very difficult, I should add, and I sulk and pout a lot too ha ha ha…But he took it well, so kudos to my Sir.A level of intimacy where I trust him as much as he trusts me. That kind of intimacy where he lends me to Mr Nice Guy and knows both of us won’t betray his rules, with a tiny bit of reminder of who owns my cunt. It’s to the point where I let myself go when I’m in his presence. I let my true submissive nature out, in hopes that he’ll keep me safe while being so horny.I don’t know if this works for all submissive, but me as a sub, when I get way too aroused, my mind turns “foggy” and I can barely think for myself, for my own safety. I’m prone to agree to anything.Permanent denial? Sounds hot when I’m horny, sounds scary when I’m not. And Sir would remind me that I do need orgasms to anticipate for my next orgasm date and to feel that frustration of knowing I chose to be denied… all for Sir’s pleasure.Choking myself? Ah… I did choke myself with my skirt belt at work before. I was excited to try that and I forgot about the danger of choking myself if it is done wrongly. Sir though…I don’t know about you guys, but I find it so sweet that he said this, “Choke yourself good. (Don’t go too crazy with it)”Do you see what I mean?My Sir DOES encourage me to try new things, but he also knows that I need to be careful with it. It’s not just “come on, go ahead and choke yourself until you can’t breath.” He reminds me of my own safety in his sweet little ways.I finally understand now that being in a dom/sub relationship isn’t all that easy. If I couldn’t trust my Sir, I would freak out at every little thing. I… okay, I admit, I do freak out at times, at how turn on I am, at how wet I can be – fucking hell, I even started to leak. Trust me, there are times when I wanted to run away from accepting who I am, and delete all my posts in my reddit because holy fuck, is that supposed to be me? That… denied, aching, needy girl… is that me?When in doubts, all I have to do is ask my Sir if he’s proud of me.He is.And thats enough to calm me down. That’s enough to look back on what I’ve been through to be Sir’s denial slut. I am not perfect. I am far from perfect. I am still bratty, I still talk back, but I do take my punishments well. I am currently learning to tame my bratty side so I can obey Sir without complaining.That’s the same thing for my Sir. He’s not perfect too, but I like him as he is. He can be harsh and firm at times, he can be a bit sadist, he made me cry, he made me smile and sometimes he drives me crazy to the point where I want to kick his balls. But he’s an amazing man, and an even better dominant. He takes care of me without needing to say a word. He’s a perfect dominant to me.And that level of intimacy…is something that I’m happy to share with him 😌😌 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n