(Disclaimer: I realize this is long, but it is all true. I posted on BDSMErotica, but I’m also posting here because of Daddy’s request)Several months back, an odd circumstance caused my Dom and I to part ways (amicably, fortunately). With that and the current global situation hindering my chances to meet someone new, I started to feel unsatisfied. My life and mood had been improved the moment I became a complete submissive. I have been submissive and an orgasm denial junkie for years, and generally it keeps me insatiable. Without a Dom, it meant being on my own again, which meant I’d be in control of my orgasm … for the first time in a very long time. This new task of self denial was daunting. When you’ve grown to love that someone else has control, the newfound freedom can feel foreign. As much as I adore having my orgasm withheld , stopping it by myself was going to pose a challenge. I don’t trust my own patience and need for relief by way of orgasm. I felt uncomfortable edging, without the firm ruling of someone telling me not to cum. Plus, I had no one to help with my other needs and kinks. My fantasies for things like: bondage, masochism , degradation etc. All these factors began to make me fall apart. It impacted my mood, my behavior, my thinking patterns, and the sex drive I loved… That is, until I met Daddy.Daddy is my first online Dom, and he is showing me how much I’ve needed to have someone in control of me again. I’m finally feeling sexy and in my natural state again. It’s a feeling I only get from being commanded, controlled, and denied. After months, I’m finally wearing my collar on a consistent basis again and it feels like I should always have it on. It’s finally satisfying again to wake up soaking wet and denied orgasm. I’m once again whimpering to Daddy about how badly my clit aches and how my pussy is still clenching from need; a behavior he enjoys and takes pleasure in. Daddy assigns me rituals, using the toys I have at home. He revels in his own orgasms and teases the way I crave. I’m so fulfilled again, feeling like I have a refined sense of purpose after so long of feeling lost.Daddy helps me daily with the needs I crave: doing things like forcing me to edge and telling me how I don’t deserve to orgasm. It’s a behavior that drives me wild. He’s paying attention to my nuances and likes, and my body is reacting in response. Just from the edging and denial my hips are bucking, my hands clawing at my skin… I’ve missed this sweet torture more than I thought. My pussy has been so wet that it’s torture, and it is heavenly.At first, I aspired to long term goals of denial, growing from where I was. It wasn’t uncommon for me to be denied for a month or 6 to 8 weeks. I wanted 2 months, then longer. I know my body’s patterns and wanted to explore how it felt to break new ground. Now, Daddy has me 2 months in without orgasm, and he shows no signs of letting me cum anytime soon. Daddy tells me I’m so obedient and I keep getting better as a submissive, the longer I’m denied. He’s teaching me things I didn’t know about myself before. I’m so grateful for his control. Before Daddy, I felt defeated from missing this important role in my life. Now I’m back, and show no signs of slowing down. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n