Please may I cum?

I’ve been on this subreddit for a while but I haven’t posted before. It’s strange to actually make a post here, I’m a bit nervous about it.I’ve done a denial period before of 30 days or so, then I broke it for a few days due to life reasons. During that time I did a lot of edging and maybe a few ruins. When I broke that streak I found it quite hard to cum, I just didn’t feel into it. It felt nowhere near as good as holding an edge for ages being just a breath away – I found it hard to get any build up at all.After I while I managed to get back to the nice place of sensitivity I reached over that denial period, but then as I was right on the edge and telling myself I was going to cum, I held back. Everytime I got close I stopped myself out of habit. If I got over the edge I know I’d only allow myself a ruin. Edging feels so good but I get so desperate to cum, I’m wetter then ever. Please, I think I need permission to cum. My pussy is dripping and my clit feels so swollen and sensitive. Please may I have permission? female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n