It’s only the third day and I feel like crawling up the walls. My owner has put me into different belts often in the past, but never without allowing me to ruin in between.He told me about the new rules and had me draw on the board I use for work. There are no descriptions on it, only circles for potential edges I will be allowed to have until the end of the year as well as a single square that stands for either an orgasm or a ruin, my owner hasn’t specified… The board is always there, visible to visitors and even the colleagues I talk to for work, they don’t know what the circles mean but it is a constant reminder.I had to cross off several edges already, I have to put the marker in my mouth and scribble them out like that. In the morning and evening I get to count them. There are only 139 left.My owner is very strict. But that is for the best. He doesn’t like when I beg without permission, hence I wait patiently for him to give me instructions. It’s been almost a month since I was last allowed to ruin but he made very clear he has no intentions to offer me relief any time soon. There is only one square at the board. I had to draw it randomly in between the circles. Sometimes he points at a random place and has me scratch it out. I’m terrified he might land on the square.The belt I’m wearing is a custom steel cage, it wasn’t bought but made by a friend actually, it has lots of engravings on it and it’s a very personal item. I can’t feel any clitoral stimulation at all, not even a bit of pressure, no matter how desperately I hump all pillows and furniture while my owner is away at work. At night he allows me to hump his leg with my wrists tied behind my back, but it barely offers any relief. All I end up with is a pulsating clit that trembles at every heartbeat. It’s the movement that arouses me, that and his body.I don’t want to orgasm again. I just need a bit of relief. Perhaps if I’m a very good girl until the 27th my owner will edge me? Just once? I just need some stimulation. A tiny bit of stimulation. I’m putting great effort into making him happy. Every morning I make him nice breakfast now and suck his cock while he enjoys a silent morning. Twice he had me swallow, today he even came on the leftovers of the food and allowed me to finish it. I think my owner is pleased with me. I hope he is. I want to be a very good girl. I NEED to be a very good girl. Otherwise I’ll never even ruin again.Those pins on my clit? I deserved them. I have no right to beg for pleasure. He doesn’t put them on unless my clit is eager and swollen. I was a greedy little slut and I am thankful my owner put me into the belt again. I just hope I can please him well enough to prove I don’t need to be punished harsher. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n