Ruined, please make me learn this is not okay. I need to hear disappointment…

I only edged twice today before having a ruin.Last full orgasm was July 8th, last ruined is now July 21st.Now on no touch the rest of the day and will be administering punishment throughout to remind myself not to get too close to the edge. My pussy is still throbbing with need even after the ruin!I will be spanking my pussy 10 times and then clit 5 times with a crop.Then, each time I would normally be required to edge, I will spank my pussy 5 times followed by 5 minutes naked on my knees in a corner listening to women orgasm. This will happen 3 times!Any thoughts on where I should kneel? Carpet, tile, or hardwood? One on each?I’m still super horny and want to touch myself so not being allowed to edge the rest of today will be rough…Please yell at me so I learn not to get to close and accidentally ruin. I need to know that I am disappointing others when this happens! Would also love motivation to keep going, I want to stay denied! female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n