Exploring Orgasm Denial and Anal Training

Some of you may have seen me post previously about my first attempt at orgasm denial over three days. Last week I did another five day session and it reduced me to a desperate dick drunk slut. I have a lot of intersecting kinks. I like cuckqueaning because of denial and teasing, I like pain that cancels out pleasure and I like when my throat or ass are used and my pussy is ignored. When I’m desperate enough I can have orgasms from anal that rival the pleasure my cunt gives me. There’s nothing my mouth or ass can do for a man that my pussy cant, other than give him more mouths to feed. Strangely I seem to love the idea of having my holes stretched while being unable to cum from it. Don’t get me wrong, I love my vagina, I love cumming but sometimes I wish my clit would just disappear so I could become a completely devoted cock socket.​At the beginning of my denial period I set a personal intention to have my holes used by at least one stranger in my area. I wanted them to be between age 25-35 I didn’t need them to be very attractive just respectful enough for me to be comfortable meeting them and sadistic enough to degrade and abuse me. When I started the week my asshole was tight and neat but I made sure that every time my pussy was feeling pleasure my asshole was full. I spent an average of 8-12 hours with a plug in my ass most days and fucked my butt a lot too.​Many men did get in touch to ask about using me, I had asked if anyone wanted to fuck my mouth like a fleshlight while they watched porn or looked at pictures of girls they’d rather fuck. None of them could meet on short notice. Maybe if I offered men my asshole it would be easier to get one to use me. I decided to keep trying and order some lube, a bigger plug and a set of clit/nipple clamps.​It didn’t take long for my new sex toys to arrive but I soon realized my slutty mistake. The plug I thought would be 7 inches long and 4 inches around was in fact 4 inches long and 7 inches around. by my 2nd day of denial i was begging for a ruined orgasm. I wasn’t allowed to until indulge until completing 10 edges and edge I did. I combed through reddit, in penpal and kink personals and hit up every nasty post that caught my eye. By the end I had at least one older man who wanted to see a girl with tight holes ruin them. Bingo.​With the giant plug on my dresser and the clamps on I hemmed and hawed trying to figure out if I should even keep it or just send it back. I imagined feeling completely full in my pussy without risking any orgasms. I knew it was too big but that didn’t stop the questions from running through my mind.​Could I fit the plug into my cunt? Wouldn’t it be fun to try? Should I try while my buttplug was in? should I try to see how far I can get it in my ass? What if it fit in my cunt? Would that mean i’m loose? What if I liked it too much? If I could make it fit would my pussy go back to being tight again? Does this make me a slut? The more I wondered to myself the wetter my panties got.​Eventually I talked to the older man who wanted to do the hole ruining, he wasn’t very interested in me. Perhaps he was tired but that didn’t stop me from enthusiastically fulfilling every degrading task he asked of me. I started out by working my buttplug in and out of my ass until I was able to simply fuck myself with it. He wanted me to fist myself but I was afraid to. Instead I tried to put the giant plug in my pussy. It wouldn’t go in but my buttplug started to push out when I tried.​I had ran out of tricks to stall so I nervously covered my hand in lube and tried to see how many fingers I could fit. First two, then three… wow my hands were so slick it wasn’t difficult to fit my thumb and pinky in too. I was able to get myself as far as my highest knuckles but not far enough to fit my whole hand. With all of my fingers completely submerged in my sloppy cunt I flexed them to and fro until I found the buttplug and pushed it out of my throbbing asshole. After I showed the old man what I could do to myself to impress him he came and stopped responding to me. There I was with two sloppy stretched holes, a slimy hand and no shame at all. I passed out shortly after earning my ruined orgasm.​By the third night I was obsessed with fucking my ass and I had a candidate that I figured was pretty serious about slapping me and fucking my throat in the back of his van. He was really mean and he insulted me a lot which made me want to see if I could fuck my ass hard enough to impress him. I wanted to see if maybe I was ready to offer him my ass so I gave myself the hardest anal I could until i had an earth shattering orgasm. It was just like what I feel when I cum from penetration only it was more deserved because I earned it turning myself into an anal whore. I chose not to count this as an orgasm and continued to deny myself the pleasure my pussy was yearning for.​In an act of desperation the fourth day I went to buy some Anbesol topical numbing medication to numb out the fire that had become my throbbing hopeless clit. Even while edging using only a make up brush I was getting to the point where I was afraid of accidentally cumming. It was amazing. It took a half an hour or so but after applying a generous amount with my clit brush I started to lose the ability to edge, even while fully aroused and focused it just wouldn’t manifest. Just to see how numb I was I fastened my nipples and my clit clamp on very tightly and observed my numb but visible arousal.​The next/final day I reached a point where I could time my edges to peak between applications of Anbesol. The man who wanted to use me in his van told me to wear lots of eye make up and lipstick so that I would look like a broken whore when I cried. I groomed myself and edged all day. The plan was that once he used me I would be worthy of cumming but by early afternoon he stopped responding. I was slightly disappointed and slightly relieved. I was growing attached to my state of constant arousal and I almost convinced myself to stay denied until I was able to find someone to use me. I was still hopeful he would use me though so I fucked my ass more with both my plug and dildo until the plug would barely stay in without underwear to hold it. I wish I could say this story ended with this man using me but instead I stayed up late and edged until I lost control​The days that followed I gradually came down to a point of normal arousal but the need to fuck my ass remained and I continued to do so for a couple of days when cumming from clitoral stimulation. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n